Allison Holker is reflecting on how her outlook has changed after the death of late husband Steven “tWitch” Boss.
“I think from experiencing loss, I really grew a lot when it came to the comparison and not comparing myself to others, because when I lost Steven — my late husband, two years ago — the things I miss about him are what he probably would have thought were his flaws,” Holker, 37, said on the Sunday, May 18, episode of the “Between Us” podcast. “Or the things that he thought, like, ‘Oh, I’m sorry if this is annoying,’ or, ‘I do this,’ or like, ‘These are weird habits that I have.’ But those are the things I wish I could have back.”
Holker recalled the couple, who were married for nine years tWitch died by suicide in 2022, always joking that he would leave the lid off of the toothpaste.
“It was so annoying, the toothpaste would get all over our sink. But I miss that,” she said. “He would leave his stuff everywhere, and I miss that clutter sometimes, you know what I mean? There’s certain things that he would think were, like, bad habits, and he thinks that those were bad — and we think those kinds of things about ourselves are bad — but those are things you miss about someone because it’s what makes them unique.”
Boss welcomed son Maddox and daughter Zaia in 2016 and 2019, respectively, with Holker before his untimely death. (Holker is also mom to 16-year-old daughter Weslie, whom she welcomed in a previous relationship.)
Years after Boss’ death, Holker shared Boss’ alleged personal information — including an alleged substance abuse issue and alleged childhood sexual abuse — in her memoir, This Far: My Story of Love, Loss and Embracing the Light. Boss’ family, including mom Connie Boss Alexander, went on to speak out against Holker’s claims and alleged they would be seeking “legal counsel” over the unproven statements” in her memoir.
“As a family we have repeatedly shown compassion toward Allison despite her disrespectful and evasive actions since Stephen’s passing,” Alexander’s February statement read, in part. “Her portrayal of Stephen appears to reshape his story into a narrative that aligns with her perspective.”
Allison Holker opened up about the death of her late husband, Stephen “tWitch”Boss, and revealed that she made a “triggering” discovery just before his funeral. Weeks after Boss died by suicide at age 40 in December 2022, Holker, 36, found a “cornucopia” of drugs including mushrooms, pills and “other substances I had to look up […]
After Boss’ family spoke out in January, Holker addressed the drama in her own statement.
“I hope that by sharing our full story maybe I can help someone else who might see themselves or a loved one in Stephen,” she wrote. “In sharing I hope that maybe they can catch some of the red flags that I missed before it’s too late.”
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